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In loving memory of Ezri, our baby.

    Ezri Taylor was Blondee and I's first child. We have no picture of Ezri, for we lost our baby after 3 months of pregnancy. For any parent who has suffered the pain and loss of a miscarriage, you can understand the grief of loosing a child. It has been one of the hardest things we have ever gone through. You see Blondee and I believe that life begins at conception and that from the moment you are conceived, you are alive and uniquely you. So when we found out we were pregnant, we loved our child and considered ourselves parents, even though our child could not yet be seen.
    We found out we were pregnant in late September close to my birthday. We were so excited. After just a few years of marriage, the desire to have children began to grow exponentially. We started looking at baby clothes and dreaming of all the hard work, tears and joys that would go along with being a parent. Little did we know just how many tears there would be.
    By November there were signs that something was wrong. With much prayer and worry we went to the
ultrasound appointment that revealed our worst fears. Sometime later we miscarried. It has been one of the most gut wrenching painful things either of us have ever gone through. We don't understand why it happened. We don't know why God took our baby. What we do know is that God is in control and keeps and saves us. We trust God and put our hope in him. 
    As time has passed, God has began the task of healing the wounds left by the void that this little one left in our lives. We thank God that he feels our pain with us and mourns as we mourned. In the deepest depths of our despair God spoke to us out of his psalms. Psalm 30:11, 12 says "You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O Lord My God I will give you thanks forever." This spoke to me that God love us and knew of our sorrow, but that we would not always grieve, and that joy would restored. He is so faithful.
    Ironic as it may seem, I would not change anything which has happened. God knows what he is doing and now our little Ezri is in heaven with Jesus. Someday when we too go to heaven, we will get to meet our baby and hold Ezri for the first time. -- BlueEyes



Father's letter to his child

Our Dearest Ezri,

As soon as we found out you were there, your mother and I loved you. We worked earnestly to prepare for you arrival. Even before you were, God knew you and love you. Just knowing that you were our child, our baby, we loved you and even now love you.  We were so sad that you had to go, but we understand that you are with Jesus now and we are glad that you are with him. We look forward to meeting you when we come to heaven some day. Then we can all be together, your mother and I and your siblings, a united family.  Until then know that we love you and even more than us Jesus loves you. We will not forget you, for you are our first child. We love you baby. We will see you someday.



Love - Papa