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Love
I began writing this essay the day after Edgar told
me to he didn't want to see me anymore. If you've read my poems you probably
know that I'm a great write when I'm depressed. I was unable to finish this
essay because the day I started it was when I started meeting people on XY and
I became happy again. Now I'm with Chris, and pretty fucking happy by the way,
so I don't think I'll be working on this for a while. The only reason I'm posting
it now is because I'm a little upset at the moment. Chris is sick, I'm not made
at him, but I wish he wasn't sick so I could see him tonight. Also, I'm still
convinced that Anthony is lying to me. I wish he would just tell me the truth;
it honestly wouldn't affect me anymore. I'm in love with Chris and I wouldn’t
drop him for Anthony and I would never cheat on him. I'd just appreciate it
if my best friend was honest with me. Anyway, this bitch is getting long so
I'm going to end this forward now.
What are we doing? Why are we here?
Is there a purpose to life? Some say no, not everything requires a purpose.
A friend once told me love is essential to life, she suggested maybe our purpose
is to find love. If this is true, why are we so bad at love? We can become so
irrational with feelings for someone that we are often blind to the world. So
what exactly is love, is it an emotion, is it all in our head, or is it really
a spiritual connection, the search for our other half, our soul mate.
Man kind is in quite a unique position.
We have evolved to the point that we are self aware; we are mentally and technologically
superior to all the other beings on this planet. However, we are nowhere near
our full potential. There is a large portion of our brain which remains untouched,
the subconscious mind. I believe our subconscious minds much more powerful than
many want to believe. So what exactly does this have to do with love and emotion?
I recently read that emotions are simply our subconscious mind telling us what
to do. I believe that the subconscious mind is so powerful and so advanced that
we cannot comprehend its thinking. Since it cannot speak to us directly, it
must fin other channels to communicate through (i.e. emotions and dreams). How
here comes the hard part in life. Since emotions are indirect communication,
they are often ambiguous and we have a hard time interpreting them.