[Tales of a Confused Mind] - [The Book of Lost Dreams] - [Love: Unfinished] - [Open All] - [Close All]
"Ignorance is bliss." – Cypher
If you decide to walk, be mindful of your footing and
don't move to fast. Hit one loose stone and you may find your face flat on the
ground. I do not know if I was ready for my journey, but now that it has started
there is no turning back. I must finish what has begun.
All my life I barely had my feet in the water,
Suddenly I found myself in the deep end.
At first the water felt good,
But I'm starting to realize I can't swim.
For years I was ignorant, but happy
Now I'm awake and I feel something is missing
Every day the void gets bigger
An emptiness I cannot fill
I use to believe happiness would be there when I was ready
I decided to work, to strip away my ignorance
I chose to be alive
But now I see, happiness requires more work.
Butterflies/Tales of a Confused Mind
When I saw her I got a strange feeling in my gut
It felt as if I was falling through the sky.
It seemed to be taking over me
I've heard about this feeling before.
I thought I might be in love
Then I farted.
Everyone says to cheer up,
That happiness is not far away.
They say that things will be different,
That tomorrow is a new day.
I have to focus on the good,
Or my mind will go astray.
But it's only eight in the morning,
Tomorrow is sixteen hours from today.
I am lost now, I have no where to go,
Is there someone who can help me, I do not know.
You have led me this far, don't lead me astray,
Please don't leave me, you must show me the way.
Many times before, you were there to watch my back,
Now as I move forward, the light fades to black.
Won't someone please guide me,
I forgot the way home.
Won't someone please save me,
Dare I enter alone?
What if I just gave up?
As I walk through the pitch black tunnel,
I feel cold and alone.
The path behind me is shut,
And I cannot go home.
The only way out is forward,
And it seems the road goes ever on.
Suddenly I see a light,
Could it be the sweet light of dawn?
Is this what I have been waiting for,
Will my pain soon be no more?
No, the light is nothing but a car, speeding towards me,
About to crush my dreams,
And destroy my heart.
How can it be, is this really the end?
How many more times must I pick myself up?
I am not sure, but when I'm ready, I might try again.
Relapse (Inspired by Pink
Floyd's The Wall)
I’m falling now, I’ve lost my grip,
I’m slipping back, to the place I now miss.
I use to be ignorant, then I was free,
Now I am dying, happiness cannot be.
I do not want to go back,
I do not want to be trapped once more.
But now the wall is slowly rising,
And I’ve found myself doing little to stop it.
When I look at you, all my pain goes away
When I talk to you, all my fears flee
You are my cure, but you are never there
All you have to do is reach out and save me
You’ve told me you care, but I don’t think you realize
I would give up everything I have for you
I would do anything you ask me to
All I need is you
You were always there for me when I was down,
You helped me through the dark times,
When no one else was around.
You were the only one who knew my pain,
You were the only one who cared.
Now you’re going where I cannot follow,
Now you will be the one who is alone.
I wish I could tell you the future,
It pains me to the very bone.
All I can say now is thank you,
For all the things that you do.
All I can say is I’ll be there for you,
As you were once there for me too.
Some speak of happiness, some of love
Some speak of soaring, high above.
Some speak of talent, of what they can show
Some speak of friends, of the bonds they know.
Some speak of the future, of what they will be
Some speak of beauty, of what they see.
I speak of nothing, my lips are sealed tight
For many it is day, for me it is night.
My world is cold and empty, I don’t know what to do
I walk this path alone, unlike many of you.
I have gone completely numb, I am dead inside
No one can save me now, I have no where to run
The days grow longer, my wounds get deeper
I don’t know what has happened, but the world is fading away
Have I done this to save myself, or is the pain killing me?
I can see someone there now, a familiar face
I cry out to them, but they cannot hear me speak
My pain is too strong, my actions too weak.
My death is nearly complete, I am being reborn as I once was
I have no power now, no control of my life
I turn to you for comfort, but you offer little help
The pain has blinded me, I do not see a reason to carry on
Take my hand and show me the way
Show me the world as it should be, show me there is something for me
I cannot survive alone much longer
Help me, I have never been this scared before
I was at the end of the road, there was nowhere to go
Then you showed me something, something I had not seen in a long time,
I had built a door in my wall, and in your hand, the key
You've opened the door and shown me the way out.
I'm at the threshold now, my past behind me, my future beyond
The road looks bumpy, but I'm ready to follow you home.
This can't be happening again
Just when I thought I was finally free
And I thought you'd always be there for me
You cut the rope and watched me fall
Now everywhere I go, I think about you
Everything I do reminds me of you
I lay awake at night, praying to forget you
I lay away at night, wondering what to do
Why did you hurt me?
Why can't I forget you?
Why is this happening to me?
Why did I ever have to meet you?
I take a breath, and I look out my window, but I feel nothing.
No pain, no sorrow, no joy.
My blinds were closed, so I opened them,
but all I can see is the wall that used to be.
I'd scream, but I wouldn't hear it.
I'd cut myself, but I wouldn't feel it.
I may be behind the wall, but my heart is on the other side it seems.
I don't even notice it, I don't even feel it. Has it really fled from me?
You haunted me once, long ago
You haunted me for a month when I let you go
You haunted me with your silence, until you finally spoke
You honored me with your presence once more
Then you haunted me with your absence once more
You wanted me out of your life, so your wish was granted
You left my life for a time, then you comforted me with my loss
You gave your condolences, then you left once more
Now you haunt me in my dreams, and I know not why
You have no right to be in there, you do not deserve that honor
You haunt me in my dreams
GET OUT!