I assume there is some thematic line beyond the titles, which will still need more time from me to understand it all. I guess it's also about someone who is, like Lucifer on Earth, a kind of 'unbeliever', looking for his own truth, but being condemned for it. Lucifer is of course every man's destiny, as soon as we are able take a distance from all repeated customs in thinking, behaving, feeling, putting our goals into life,..I read in esoteric writings that Lucifer also is another name for Christ, who is like his inner star, which implies his own independent role outside the customs of the sheep who have not found their own destiny in the world yet. The falling down of Lucifer and Christ is like coming to an earthly destiny.* Only then all the enlightened essence of inspiration can start to build on something to renew, in life, and in a destined creative process.


* If we conclude my own remarks we might conclude that Jesus only became Christ at the crucifiction, in this way giving not just his life but also his destiny on earth to the people. If we continue this thinking we can also consider that his life itself was a reflection from a Luciferian vision. That explains how Christianity takes over this role, but instead of doing the same and coming to the same transformation process, they neglect the life force of becoming and see Jesus already as the Christ from the time he was born. The "sheep", as the followers of religious and other patterns, accept all wrongly arrived at conclusions, and the true life-force destiny which we must strive with is neglected by an exoteric religion.

T his release, for me, is like a symbol of an early self-development creativity, taking a distance from some old patterns.

Because this release with each listen has the tendency to give me more inspiration than reveal everything like that, here are the true meanings of the songs:

DAMIEN YOUTH Comments on each song on BRIDE OF THE ASYLUM

Deeper into the texts of the music:

1 - Bride Of The Asylum: When I was a child I had an uncle who had a sex change. At the age of 5 I recall him crying and telling us he was now going to be our aunt. I remember his stories of drugs and gender confusion. Later in life when I got into L.S.D. I would think of my uncle's confusion and his madness. I think this comes up in this song.

2 - Katie Called Me Lucifer: Katie was a junkie girl that I spent a few nights with. She would come to my shows and she was convinced I was from another planet. She was very into U.F.O. conspiracy.

3 - Wingless and Wildeyed/God Someday: This song deals with my letting go of my occult past. I had a bunch of people that looked to me for a place to live and spiritual guidance. I was a student of the Tarot for years. I walked away from that world and the artist girl I was dating in that group. The tag song God Some Day I really wanted a child to sing that song. God was always a spooky being when I was young.

4 - Penny Overcoat: After I left the occult scene I spent much time hanging in a coffee shop and writing in my journals. This cute girl in an overcoat came in one day and when she left, I followed her. She never saw me. I watched her shopping and then when she walked home I sat in a field behind her house and wrote poems in my journal.

5 - Hermaphrodite Jesus: I was trying to over come the fear of God that was instilled in me. I wanted to lay to rest all of my religious hang ups. I also based this on an real hermaphrodite that used to work in a middle eastern shop called KRUZ in New Orleans. He/she looked like Jesus! Sometimes he/she would shave and come to work as a woman. He/she lived a double life and he/she is a real person. I used to think. "What if he/she was Jesus Christ?" ;-)

6 - Blackbird and The Widow: "We sleep to practice dying, we awake to recall our birth and we dream to practice flying for when our souls shall leave this earth." I'm a bit obsessed with death. I always wondered who would come to my grave stone when I've passed. I get that from my father. My father used to say "When you die, your soul becomes a crow." That is why in the song, I'm in a feather mask. This means I am dead and I am a crow.

7 - Ugly Alice: There was an old lady who lived on our street. When we were kids we thought she was a witch. On the walk home from school, my friends in I would dare each other to throw rocks at her house. She would run out on the porch and scream at us. Later in life when I got into the occult, people thought I was a witch. So I put my self in Alice's place.

8 - Zoomorphic Kingdom: Alien abduction song. It suggests humans are an alien experiment. This song feels like a fading memory.

9 - Mythical Light: This song takes another look at the bible and I point out verses that call Lucifer "The Morning Star" and other verses that call Jesus "The Morning Star". The song suggests that Christ and Satan are the same being.

10 - Fountain Heart: In this song, I'm still feeling the pull towards sex and romance, a pull away from the world of mysticism. I give myself to romance in this song, but it's still in retrospect, because I always leave the lover and return to the mystic quest.

11 - Virus: I was lost on opium, I was in a dim lit room, the music was loud and the room was crowded. My eyes locked with the eyes of a stranger. It seems like we stared for hours. Never did we speak, we just looked at each other and it seemed we were communicating. When I would smile, she would smile. Then a sadness came upon her face, I returned a look of concern. I realized we had all of the same make up. Pain, Joy, Love, Loss, Beauty, Ugliness and dying, the death strand, the virus...

12 - Somebody New: I ended the album with this song because it was child like. I was also feeling light hearted because I was starting a new relationship. My artist's ex-girlfriend wanted me back and my occult friends wanted me back. I wanted to go and I found a young, innocent girl to lead me away from all of it. "Everything that goes it will come back to you." was a line that hinted, I may be back...