7 May, 2001
My love/hate relationship with Cliques.
* Warning - rambling psycho babbling rant that maybe I should have never written since i get way off track and totally personal ... but hey i went with the flow. this is what my muse said to write. *
Cliques ... you know what they are, you see them all over the web now. A way *with cute banners to boot* for sites with similar content to link to each other. So are cliques a good thing ... or are they still those evil things that we all remember from high school where one group of people decides if you are are *cool* or not.
I'll admit I'm torn on if they are good or not. Lately it seems as if they are like crack and I've turned into their whore. There are so many buffy and angel ones that I spend hours visiting all the different sites. Sites that I might not have normally have found or visited, that end up getting bookmarked. *sigh* but a good *sigh* which is why I have the whole crack whore/love thang going on for cliques.
BUT ... on the other hand ... Aren't they the same as the little cliques we all remember from high school? I mean here we have a group of people telling other people .. 'sorry but you suck, and not in the good way' sure it's a lot more polite then that, but still the message is the same... we have judged you and found you lacking. (Oh and btw yes I was rejected by a clique ... no it wasn't today it was about 4 weeks ago when this website was first born in it's pretty lame original design.)
There are so many cliques out there and it's just like high school ... there are the geek cliques for the more techno nerdy of us *btw I bow down to all nerds and geeks .. this computer shit can be really hard* then there are the punker/outcast cliques *happy dance ... I found my people ... the outcasts, the "losers" the misfits .. yep that's me* then we have the Cordy & The Cordette season 1 cliques .. *you know the ones .. 'I'm so cool, my shit don't stink' kind of people* The people who judge ... the ones that say "you aren't good enough"
Wow ... bitter much? Well ... yeah I am. *okay here's where it gets personal* I was a major outcast in school .. I went to a high school in a rich area of Orange County and I wasn't rich. So right off the bat I stuck out like a sore thumb, then it got worse since I spoke my mind and didn't conform. Needless to say I do not look back on high school with fond memories ... I hated every minute of it.
So I know first hand how it really can fuck up your life. And now I am having to see my own child go through the same crap I went through. Here is a child who is smart, funny and beautiful, you would think she would be one of the popular kids. But she's not. She doesn't play the bullshit games of her peers. She is smart and beautiful, but she is also tall and gangly (5'3" at 11 years of age) Add to that the fact she is also sensitive, caring, and yes very emotional. So she gets picked on and teased and bullied. Daily she gets harassed.
It does hurt her to be picked on and teased but does she fight back? Yep but not with fists, but with words. To point she is starting her own website and posting her views and rants. It hurts to not be part of the in crowd clique, but ya know what? She's a happy kid who is comfortable in her own skin for the most part. And while I am her mom and as such am a tad biased, she is a kick ass kid whom I not only love, I really *like* her.
Damn where did all that come from? What was the point of this rant again? Oh yeah ... cliques .... good or evil?
I have to say although some cliques do get on my nerves sometimes (just because of the whole "you suck" factor, when they reject a site.) I have to say for the most part cliques online are a good thing. Not only for the fact they bring websites together, but they bring people together too. And there are so many different
cliques ... just like high school.that's just my opinion ... i could be wrong.
::colt pixy:: - 7 May 2001