Title: Isn't happiness supposed to last forever?
Author/pseudonym: Demonicpixy
Email address: email author
Rating: 15 (uk)for now
Feedback: PLEASE!!!! The more I get, the more I write, the better the fic
Dedication:To Becci for all your help and support for me. I thank you for your honesty when you beta'd my fic.
Notes: This is a Buffy/Xander fic, so turn back now if it's not you're bag baby!!!! or you could just give it a go, you never know till you try!!!! This is written from Buffy's POV and set in season 5ish
Part One
As I looked at the man sleeping next to me, I found myself wondering why it had taken so long for us to get tgether. He looked so peaceful laying there, he certainly wasn't the same Xander I had depended on for the last 4 years. Thinking back I couldn't help but to smile at how stupid we had both been.
I'd had my fair share of disasterous relationships and so had he. First there had been my ill-fated love affair with Angel, looking back now I could see that we had been doomed from the start but at least we had come out of it friends.
Then there was 'wham,bam, thank you ma'am' Parker, how needy had I been then? I hated to even think about it just the thought of it gave me the chills.
I wiped the memory away with the thought of my last major boyfriend, Riley. He had been my rebound guy and although I hated to admit it, I had made a big mistake with him. He had been a great guy and he deserved so much more than I was ever willing to give him. Sure it had hurt like hell when he'd left me but it was more a case of hurt pride than a broken heart.
Xander, on the other hand hadn't really faired much better. First, there was his fixation on me, at the time I wasn't interested in him that way, I wanted him for a friend not a lover and I hadn't exactly let him down easy when he'd asked me out, I hated myself for it now. Then there was his bizarre, if not kinda cute relationship with the ice-bitch herself, Cordelia Chase, who was ironically now living with Angel in LA.
Theirs had been a strange relationship, and had ended badly, when she had discovered him kissing Willow. He'd been heartbroken, especially when she had taken a shine to the new watcher, Wesley, who had seemed like the biggest idiot going at the time. Her lusting after Wesley apparently came to nothing and she had left Sunnydale, although not before her and Xander had made friends again.
Then he'd gotten involved with ex-demon Anya, she had become fixated on him after being turned into a mortal and he'd just sort of gone along with it.
Eventually he had fallen in love with her. Actually we all thought they'd end up getting married and having babies together, but then she had shocked the hell out of us by choosing to become a demon again over being with Xander. He had been devastated. I remember the whole thing so clearly cause it was right after mom died, and I was having a real hard time with that. It just seemed that we had turned to each other for support, he'd been my rock and I was his shoulder to cry on.
We'd gotten drunk together one night after patrol, which is unusual for me, seeing that I hardly ever drink, especially after the 'cavebuffy' incident. And ended up having sex, but the strange thing about it was, neither of us felt bad about it the next day. So, for the next 10 months we'd had a no strings, sexual relationship, just sex nothing else.
In fact the rest of the time we were exactly as we had always been, friends.
Then something had happened. Don't ask me what, cause I have no idea, but I woke up one day and I felt differently about him, in fact, I couldn't stop thinking about him. The next time we had sex I'd tried to ignore how I felt, but I couldn't.
I savoured every moment we had together, I drank in the sight of his beautiful body, and I seemed to try harder to please him. At first I didn't think he'd noticed the change in me, but 2 weeks later he mentioned it as we laid there after sex.
"Buffy?"
"Yeah."
"Is something wrong?"
"Why do you say that?" I turned and faced him.
"You've been acting kinda weird lately, you seem to be more affectionate with me?" he paused "Or it is just wishful thinking on my part?" he said quietly.
My heart skipped a beat, did I understand him correctly? Could he possibly be feeling the same way? Should I risk it all and confess ?
"Yes, I have been acting strangely." I took a deep breath, "Xander, I think I'm in love with you."
I searched his face for some sort of reaction. To start with there was nothing. Had he heard me? Then a smile spread across his gorgeous face and he took me in his arms.
"Do you know how long I've waited for you to say those words?"
The tears welled up in my eyes and all I could do was nod. That was 6 months ago and we are happier than ever.
The only thing left to do was tell our friends. We had decided to get married and we couldn't hide it for much longer.
So there we were, in a motel just outside the center of LA. We had come here to visit Giles and Willow, who had moved out here 8 months ago. And while we were here, we were going to let Angel and Cordy know too. That was going to be the hard one, but I was hoping that everyone would be happy for us, and even if they weren't we would still have each other.
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Part Two Or