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Good-bye to the old me!

Hello to the new me!

It’s hard for me to write about these photos. When the previews first came up on the screen at the studio, I said: “Freak!”. The lady thought I was calling myself a “freak”. I explained that I wasn’t, just that I had a hard time believing that these photos are really me. Even now I struggle to tell you what it is like to have come this far on the journey to the “New Me”. These photos are a Valentine’s Day gift for my wonderful husband. He has loved me through thick and thin, and I am so very proud to be his wife.               

Written on February 4th, 2003

Talk about ups & downs & all arounds! Earlier today (Monday), I was informed about the Senate hearing to take place on February 27th about the missing person's law we are trying to get passed, and then tonight, I get the call that my Glamour Shots photos came in, so I went & picked them up.

These are a Valentine's Day gift for my husband. It was incredibly difficult to sneak in & out of the house without him finding out what I was doing when I went to have them taken, then to go pick them up, scan them & update my website with the photos!  Wow! I'm having a hard time not giving them to him, but I do need to get a few frames. If he doesn't like them, he will be in the dog house for the rest of our married life!  LOL

Suddenly, I felt so emotionally charged. I almost started crying, too, when I looked at these photos. It's so hard to explain, but it's like the entire culmination of my journey is all wrapped up in a little colored piece of paper! I've had some self-image problems along the way, in that I could never see myself as I am. No doubt this is entirely normal when a person was as heavy as I was for that many years. (2 decades of morbid obesity and several more years as obese)  Looking at the photos & knowing that I'm pretty much at goal and that I really, truly have done this is really overwhelming me with emotion at this point. I can say, no, make that SHOUT, to the highest rooftop: "I have done this!  I have lost 200 lbs, I'm almost to goal, I'm a healthy person who can do things she never thought were possible, and I am the ME that I was meant to be!"        I dared to dream that I could make this happen, and I did!

I just want you all to know how possible it is to do this!  Never give up, no matter how long it takes, or what happens along the way. Love yourself as who you are and who you will become. Believe that you can do it, and you will do it!

Thank you for your support of me, your kind thoughts, your generous hearts, and most of all for being you!

Written late in the day on February 4th, 2003

Love yourself as who you are and who you will become. Believe that you can do it, and you will do it!

Kelly