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They
call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and
start realizing that there are a lot of things about
yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will
be in a year or two, but then get hot and scared because
you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends
that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly
the greatest people you
have ever met and the people you have lost touch with
are some of the most
important ones.
What you do realize is that they are realizing that
too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere,
but that they are as confused as you are.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what
you thought you would be
doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing
that you are going to have to start at the bottom
and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing
with the same
people on a constant basis. But then you realize that
maybe they weren't so
great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what
you want and do not want.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others
are doing and find
yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly
you realize that you
have certain boundaries in your life and add things
to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.
You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry
with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone
and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the
enemy and you cry and cling on to the past with dear
life but soon realize
that the past is drifting further and further away
and there is nothing to
do but stay where you are or move forward. The stupid
ones plateau, the smart ones rise.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone
you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in
bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough
to get to know better.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look
cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot
starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over
and over and talk with your friends about the same
topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You wonder what in the hell is wrong with you. You
worry about loans and
money and the future and making a life for yourself
and while winning the race would be great, right now
you'd just like to be a contender!
We are making a lot of mistakes, but helping one
another learn from them. We will piss one another
off, and laugh at the end of a conversation that started
with angry words. We are a group that talks behind
the backs of the same people we call to meet up with
on a Friday night, but we are sorry about it and we
know that we were just being insecure like they have
been.
What you may not realize is that everyone reading
this relates to it and we are all in this together.
We are in our best of times and our worst of times,
trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing
out. We are friends, and in 10 years we will be friends
who have figured out where we fit in in this world.
Generation X |